Earlier today, I visited their Friendster profiles. The first one already has a wife and two kids. The second one has a kid who looks like him. The third one hasn't had a girlfriend in 7 years but he has one now. He does not mention her in his blog but he mentions me. Reading one of his entries has made me realize how different I am now. Let me correct that: each of them knows about or have been with different versions of me. This makes my heart break. I want to apologize but I can't pinpoint,really, what I'm sorry about.